insecurities at its finest

Hey peeps, its been a long time since my last update. I hope you all are in the pink of health (whoever is reading this). As we all know, most people have insecurities, and that of course, includes me. But of course I'm not gonna tell you guys what my insecurities are because that would basically means me telling you guys about my weakness. 

Today I choose to talk about this just to say that I just realized that I need to remind myself over and over again not to say things that I insecure about to others, to anyone. because not everyone will understand. Some will just simply think that I'm being overdramatic about everything. Some will get annoyed and decide to not wanna listen to what I have to say. From my experience, I don't think anybody would understand. Its pretty depressing and really sad actually, to have to face this thing alone, but I guess its better than having people judging me as I tell them about my weakness. Yeah at first they'll listen and pretend that they understand us, but at some point, they just couldn't hold it anymore and reveal what they actually feel towards the things I told them. And that's just gonna make me feel worse about myself. It doesn't help. 

I don't know but I think if you ask my friends, or if you ever follow me on any of my social media, you won't (or maybe rarely) find any depressing thoughts, or me being sad or extremely mad about my personal life because for me, its a form of weakness and I don't like people seeing me as weak (don't get me wrong, I only feel like this for myself only, if anyone out there expressing their depressing or unhappy thoughts or anything bad about their personal life, I won't see them as weak, its just that if I do it, I'll feel like I'm showing my weakness to others. That's all). 

But anyway, even though I tell you guys all this, I'm completely all ears to listen to anyone's (girls) problem or insecurities whenever you wanna tell me. I'm all ears to whatever you guys have to say. because me, of all people, should be able to relate and understand how it feels as I myself face the exact same thing as you guys as well.

I pray that you guys won't have to experience what I experienced before and may Allah ease everything for all of us. Thanks for reading.